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I was extremely fortunate this afternoon to have some downtime to myself while the boys napped. The celebrity gossip blog and mom’s group message board I frequent were slow and boring today, so I picked up the latest issue of the Ensign (our church mag) and read this very poignant and touching article by the president of our church.

“Sometimes we let our thoughts of tomorrow take up too much of today. Daydreaming of the past and longing for the future may provide comfort but will not take the place of living in the present. This is the day of our opportunity, and we must grasp it.”

Newborn Kai

When Dax was still a tiny newborn, I couldn’t get over how much bigger and older Kai was. After all, he was my only baby for two whole years.

The realization of how quickly Kai’s first two years flew by really set in. Looking back at his infancy, I feel that I spent a lot of time grasping for some future happiness, whether it was hoping for a better night’s sleep, wanting the day to be over, looking forward to Ryan being home on the weekend, etc. When I go through old photos, I find myself sadly and regretfully thinking, where did all the time go?

Four-month-old Kai

Since Dax’s birth, I’ve made it a goal of mine to live in the “now.” No way do I want to miss out on my boys’ childhoods or eschew happiness that is in reach because I’m constantly looking for something “better.”

“You pile up enough tomorrows, and you’ll find you’ve collected a lot of empty yesterdays.”

I admit that I often slip (“I can’t wait till the boys are asleep.” or “If only we were able to do this, or buy that.”), but I must slow down. And smile. And laugh, and sing, and read that third bedtime story even if I’m dog tired, because my boys are growing up heartbreakingly fast.

President Monson’s message is an inspirational reminder to live in the present, and to do so joyfully and gratefully. So read it!

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